I promise to not let your choice to be weak, set the standard of strength in my life.
I promise to not let your lack of character affect my desire and choice to continually build mine.
I promise to not let your lack of integrity affect my belief that morals do exist and to apply them wholeheartedly to mine.
I promise to not let your choice of comfort over growth affect my choice to continually push myself to be better and develop in every trial and every struggle.
I promise to not let your talk of love give you the appearance of of being a genuinely loving entity but rather let your actions define your current capacity to love.
I promise to employ the love He talks of, not the love you show.
I promise to look at your predominantly negative impact to this nation as a representation of your actions, character and personal disciplines not who you claim to follow.
I promise to look at your wounds and your fears and compare them to the strength in your heart, before I assume you will choose to be strong enough to be the person you appear to be on Sundays or on Facebook.
I promise to not let your decision in choosing to let division tear apart relationships be a representation of God’s desire for unity, his passion for growth or his ability to heal.
I promise to not forget your potential or purpose.
I promise to let your actions define your character not the character of your God.
I promise to let your choice to settle for subpar in so many aspects of your life be a representation of your weakness, not God’s.
I promise to let the choices you make to live inside your walls and choose protection over healing or restoring relationship be reflective of your wounds and not the worth of those around you.
I promise to let the stupid things you do and say go, but still forever wish you see how many people you are hurting.
I promise to not hate you for the self-righteous words you speak to people who have more character then you, and to not choose to be angry at you for the pain others have felt from your lack of self-control.
I promise to not assume that your role as a leadership means you live righteously.
I promise to see all the hearts you have left in ruin while you walk in self-righteous ignorance of your salvation and to try to love those hearts in the ways you have failed.
I promise to not look to you as a reflection of my God.
I promise to recognize his grace but acknowledge the expansive affect of your choices.
I promise to set myself apart from you.
I promise to love you, but not be part of whatever you claim to be.
I promise to recognize that you are failing miserably to represent the God you claim to follow.
I promise to try to be a conduit of healing in a world that you have helped shatter.
I promise to love you and God alike, but to recognize that never in my life has there been such a vast difference between the two of you.
I have believed in God for 26 years. I have seen him move in my life, I have seen him do things only he can do time and time again. I have also grown up in the church, and while I absolutely believe in God, I do not condone nor support the choices I see in much of the Church today. If you call yourself a “Christian” then at a minimum you should be a genuinely good person, if not then at least be accountable for your choice to be a below average human being. The church is caught up in what I like to call “ignorant grace”, and its this idea that because you have salvation you somehow don’t need to give as much care or concern to how you handle your heart, life or relationships. You are wrong. If you claim to live covered by grace, then you are also claiming to be a christian which in turn is claiming to be a representation of who God is. Therefore you have subjected your life to a high mandate to give all you have to be a person with integrity, character and love so great that your actions speak louder then your words.
I refuse to let the way “Christians” handle relationships, friendships, challenges and trials change my belief of the standard to live with integrity, character or love.
I will build my life daily. I will love even when its hard. I will grow, I will develop in character and I will live my life in excellence. I will fight for relationship. I will continue to push for more, greater and bigger things then I have seen. I will continue to make an impact, and I will continue to not settle. I will live my life in a way that shows that I love God, but make no mistake that I do not share an association with the current reflection of “god” you, christians and the church alike, are giving the world.